Oh my life is so much bigger than you. But it doesn’t seem like it in the microscopic moments. You’re like a great plate of baked ziti. Comforting in the moment and a disappointing and unfulfilling reality.
I miss my best friend. I hate this really uncomfortable and vulnerable place I’m at. I miss my mom and wish it didn’t always feel like I was disappointing the family to live on the east coast. I hate that all this makes it seen like you’re important when really you’re just filler for this painful void. I hate needing you or making it seem like I need you while I work my shit out. You’re just not worth it on any level. I wish you were. I wish you were life changing.
Cold weather runs = extra treats. #prettysurehescheering #touchandgoforawhile #hesthebestest
The bags for @godslovenyc are amazing!! #lovethiskid #bestthanksgiving #gratefulformyfriends
you read a poem, or a part of a poem, that smacks you right in the face. and you can hear that person saying those words to you. those exact words and you remember how that felt. and how they thought they were right. and how you believed them.
"he tells you that no man can live up to the one who lives in your head and you tried to change didn’t you? closed your mouth more tried to be softer prettier less volatile, less awake but even when sleeping you could feel him travelling away from you in his dreams so what did you want to do love split his head open? you can’t make homes out of human beings someone should have already told you that and if he wants to leave then let him leave you are terrifying and strange and beautiful something not everyone knows how to love.”
And I heard him say to her in a semi-disapproving, semi-insulted tone, “You didn’t think I forgot about you, did you?”.
On a more serious note, in case you weren’t able to tell by the fantastic artwork in the background, this was taken in 5 Pointz in Long Island City. 5 Pointz has been called the graffiti mecca of the world. This is not haphazardly tagged, illegally spray painted stuff done in the middle of the night - this is an entire square block of pure unadulterated art made by beautiful human beings such as the one you’re looking at. And they’re going to tear it down. To make new condos. I’ll say it again, they’re going to destroy art to make room for new condos.
Supposedly, the decision is not yet final, and by the love of everything good and holy, I hope this to be true. You can help the good people at 5 Pointz and possibly save art by signing their landmark petition here.
Tear down for condos? I hope NYC is better than that. Sign the petition, let’s get it done.
Today my lovely friend @B3RN3X told me that he got into road running/races because of me. This is the same man who kills every race he runs and is practically at a sub 1:30 half. I’m not sure if he knows how much that means to me or how much I adore him.
It just goes to show that you never know how the things you do impact other people. I absolutely never imagined I would be the girl who influenced other people to run. BCITW probably already knows that it’s hard for me to accept what he said, but I’m trying. Feeling really grateful tonight for the people in my life.
This ad is taken from an issue of Women’s Health. The tagline reads: “For Running, Not Running Erands. We make real performance products for real women who get after every day.”
This is a huge problem for two reasons. First, is that person in the corner not a real woman? So what if she’s wearing performance gear while running errands? Every adult needs to run errands during their daily life, it’s an important part of living responsibly. To imply that she’s somehow less worthy of this clothing just because she wears athletic gear while shopping - That’s really weird and it ignores what she does during the other 23 hours of her day. Would the company really deny her the right to buy their products just because she doesn’t spend all of her time exercising? (Hell no, you know that they’d take her money no matter what!)
And second: This company is attempting to sell their products through Girl Hate. They’re putting these two women into competition with each other and saying that the runner is “real” & going “after it” while the other woman is not. If you’re the “real” woman, then hooray! You deserve to buy nice things! You’re better than all those other fakes out there! God, don’t you just hate how those other girls dare to wear the same kind of mass-produced clothing as you? The nerve!
Commercial companies shouldn’t have to put down and demean women in order to sell their products. This clothing is going to be sold to everyone no matter what their exercise regime is like, so why insult people? It’s hypocritical, especially since you know that they’ll happily sell their clothing to anyone who’s willing to buy. All this ad does is create an imaginary hierarchy between “real” and “fake” women where we’re trained to judge each other on sight. We don’t need that in our lives.
This mile felt awesome!! And by awesome I do mean that I thought my asthmatic lungs might be bleeding at the end because of the cold but I did it!! And got faster!
Such a great night. My little niece and mom also sent me an “I love you” video which melted my heart. Started the day on the rough side, had a lot of really tough sessions with kids that were super heavy, and then the day slowly got better and better.
Focusing on just breathing and being proud of myself and feeling super loved. I’ll let you know if I figure out how to bottle the feeling for the rough days/moments. Wouldn’t that be amazing??!!